Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Madaming beses na akong nakadaan sa mga hagdang may drawing na ganto pero ..

.. ako lang ba ang nag-iisang ang akala sa ganitong drawing noong bata pa e para lang sa mga natatae? Haha. Pag-genius nga naman XD 

Bidding Farewell.

It’s by accident that you came in my life, I never planned it neither you do. It’s just by God’s will that we met, and all the things happened, I know it wasn’t a part of your schema or whatever foolishness I have once thought you’re drowning me into. I believe you are a good guy, a kind hearted person, you, just like any other, just like me sometimes, has just been overwhelmed by the moment and had been indulged into something pathetic, into something not decent enough to be kept reminiscing, I know you didn’t meant it, I know you didn’t.

I know you never wanted to play with my feelings, I know you never intended to give me false hopes, its just I anticipated too much, its just I expected way beyond what you can give, or at least.  

Your only fault is that you’ve shown me a very insignificant affection, and the rest, it’s all mine. I tricked my own feelings, I trivialized my own acts, and without prior knowledge with the future consequences of the deeds I done, I went to a point where I have blamed you, cursed you even. And I know its all invalid. The miseries I have are only the resonance of what I’ve done.

Forgive me for blaming you all the pains I had, all the disappointments I reasoned you because. Forgive me for expecting more than the friendship I know, the most you can only give. Forgive me for the awkwardness we have now, the distance we have now.

I miss being friends with you, if only I can go back to those times where I am the one you’re calling at night. I am the one you’re getting advice to, I am the one your telling your plans to, I am the one who constantly making you laugh. How I wish, I can undo things.

I am finally, letting go of you, of your memory, and of all the things we had and lost. Some things just don’t last, unfortunately, ours doesn’t.

And for once and for all, I am bidding farewell.

Baby :’>

You can never really define love until someone will come and define it for you.

I’m not the type of person who’s always ‘pa-sweet’ and sorts whenever they are with the person they like. I would just be me, if he won’t notice me then so be it. But no matter how frigid and cold you are, there will always be that special someone who will turn you into the total reciprocal of who you used to be. And in my case, I’ve found that person.

Its feels so amazing realizing how gigantic the world is, with a billion numbers of strangers, and yet you’ve found that special apple among the mob, it’s magical. 

That feeling when a simple smile is melting every single heart beat you have, when a mere stare is shaking the entire strength out you. That no matter how much you focus on the words he speak, you can’t just resist to be amazed by how special the person talking in front of you is, by how lucky you are that in a billion of people in the world, he chose you.

You can’t help but to daydream about the both of you growing old together with, looking back to all the heart aches, pains and letting go, you know everything had been paid-off way beyond enough.

Hay love, it can really make you or break you. You can never predict what will going to happen, who will going to come. And that I’ve learned that searching, chasing for everything isn’t really a good thing to do.

 Wait, that’s what I did, patience, that’s what I’ve learned, the right guy, that’s who I’ve got. And now I’m happy, superbly happy. J