Monday, August 23, 2010


Why not try to ask if its already aching ? Why not try to take no peek to the pretenses of my lips but to the pain dancing inside ? Why not take a good look in my eyes -- scrutinize, conclude and redeem my gloomy soul. I know you know how much i missed your lips, your stare, not those peculiar one's but those one's who gives me affection with each every blink. You love me - I know that. You care for me - I know that. You missed me - I know that. But isn't it things will be a lot beautiful if they are to be felt rather than to be merely know ? There's no such permanent thing in this world, but to destiny's mercy, can he just, PLEASE, make you mine ? I love you to the extremity.. You surely know how much i really do.


I have went through from a heart wrecking break-up and as far as my memory can recall , you where the one who patiently listened to my dilemmas, to my endless why's, to my that day, crying heart. I know you see my drama almost to a fault but i heard no word from you and instead, you gladly listen. You indeed became a good friend from the very beginning of our that moment, yet to told story.


Eyes so brown.
Lips so intimate.
Body so pure.
Soul so transparent.
Voice so calm.

You just don't know how thankful I am when you first touched my hand and never let go it till then, when you first whispered our first hello, when you first gave me the beauty of the universe by the time you embraced me, when you first rushed my adrenaline when you kissed my lips in front of the crowd and told me you love me. You just dont know.. you just don't really know.


" How many children you want for us to have in the future ? "

" Um. 2 is enough for me I guess. "

" Aha. I want our baby boy to be named Enzo. "

" And our girl Ikarus. "

" Why Ikarus ? "

" I just want that name. So that she will be then nicknamed Ikay . hehe. "

" Of course my Enzo will have his nickname too ? Enoy. "

" Haha what an hilarious pseudo ? Im sure he'll going to curse you for giving that nickname ! haha "

" Haha he wont have options anyway..

.. never leave me boo. I dont know what my life will be if you'll going to leave me. "

" I'll never leave you. Never. "



He is my only concept of happiness next to God and Family. I just cant imagine life without him telling how things must be in their proper places, of how i mustn't cry whenever somethings came to fall out of my expectations, of how i must not forget to take good care of myself whenever he's not around, of how much he loves me, of how much he wont be unfaithful to me, of him constantly reminding me, Me, Ikay and her Mom will be the only women in his life. He's all the man I had ever wished for, more then those I watched in fairy tales and films.


Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes


Why ask how much I cant live without you ? Why ask how much tears I cry every night ? Why not ask so that you will know how im dying inside .. and yet living life happily still whenever you lift all my senses from the brink of desperation.

I love you. And I think you no need to ask me then. For in my eyes you can see the happiness.. you dont stop giving me.