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Saturday, January 12, 2013

Random thoughts


So okay, I’ve always wanted to escape the reality, and I’m trying to escape it but reality’s just reality and I’m stuck in it since magic, elves, witches, wizards, nephilims, revenants, shadow hunters and demigods are just all fictional, and so is the world I always imagine when I’m psychologically withdrawn. Not that I find reality kind of boring (but mostly it is), but for me it is the most scary thing in the universe, more scarier than slaying dragons, six-armed ogres, 30 ft tall Cyclops, a pack of wolves, and numas.

Sometimes, okay, often, I imagine that I’ll find a black hole and because of my curiosity, I’ll scrutinize it, I’ll fall, I’ll black out, and the moment I wake up, I’ll be surrounded by mom, dad and my pesky sister and they’ll have this cute pointed ears (‘course except for me because I’m the dude of the story and also except for my dad) and I’ll jump off my feet to know that we’re in a very beautiful world of elves and my mom’s the queen and my father, an angel (who have granted the will to love an elf and to stay in her world) making me and my sister a half-angel, half-elf (but the elfish thing runs  on my sister’s blood stronger than the angel thing so she has a pointed ear and me, the complete equilibrium of the two) and that we lived in the world of mortals to prepare me for the battle of my life.

Also, our mortal house is on either France or Los Angeles. Then, they will have to leave me in the mortal world since my Mom’s the queen and she has the responsibility to look over her peaceful and beautiful kingdom and my sister, she can go on either of the worlds and I can’t (because of a prophecy I’m still making up) and my father, he has a job on the angel kingdom (but it’s only an eight hour shift so he goes home after) and me, I’m still going to my university and by the way I’m on my senior year taking up AB Literature.
Bit by bit, I’m going to discover my powers and they are as follows:
·                         Healing – since my mother’s an elf making her also, one of the leaders of the four elements, and she has the earth element, and since our body is made of metal elements she can regenerate any wounds, bruises and the sorts and so can I.
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           Levitation – I acquired this one on my father but unlike him, I have no wings (because it would be a hassle if the enemy will pare it, or if I’m flying in narrow spaces, and also because I’m just a half-angel.)
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            Charm Speaking – This one’s from my mother, through my words, I can urge people to do things I want. (but I’m not going to use this for evilness, hello, the dude of the story). I’m going to use this towards my enemies and maybe to civilians who would see crazy stuffs of my world.
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                      Invisibility – this one’s from my father, since angels act as guides, they’re with mortals but they don’t see them. But this power of mine won’t work towards my number one nemesis (which means I have other nemesis too).
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           Nature pheromone – This, I got it from my mom. This ability would enable me to talk to everything and everyone in the nature.
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            Amazing fighting skill – and this, I don’t know where I got it, so it is another mystery I have to unravel.

And my most fatal power, I’m still working on that.
Sooner or later, I’ll discover that there are other kids like me (but not half-angel, half-elf, some of them are daughters and sons of the fire, air, water element, good witches, and wizards  but unlike me, they’re half-mortal), and there’s  like 8 of us. We go to the same school, and accidentally we are going to discover each other’s identity. Our greatest foe will be Lucian’s legion, he’s this crazy right hand of Satan that aims on overthrowing his boss if he will destroy equilibria, the seed of equilibrium.

Myths says that, anyone who can destroy equilibria will have this power no one can fathom the boundary. And the reason behind why God had entrusted the seed of equilibrium to the world is for all the habitants of the earth to work together as one, to maintain equality and peace, so technically it serves as an anchor to all things, either bad or good. But equilibria is not a literal seed, but rather an offspring of two individuals that call for earth and heaven, angel and elf, and equilibria is within me, or much to better say, I am equilibria.  (Mygash, this is going exciting)

Me and my friends will work hard to unknot this vague and almost impossible to unfold prophecy, only to find out that what we’re looking for has always been within me (and like any other books, enemies know it already and we’re dead). And of course, I’m going to meet someone (squeal), Lucian’s only son, Daemon. He has this ebony hair that drops smoothly on his shoulder when he brushes it with his fingers, he has the eyes of impossible blue, green and hints of olives, he has this jaw and nose carved to perfection, skin of that someone who surfs, tanned but just enough, you know the sexy kind of tan and a voice that is effortlessly husky and hot.

And I’ll fall for him, but I have to control my feelings because hello, he’s obviously the enemies trap a hot trap, and I have this big quest I should do or else we’re all doomed.

Daemons Lucian’s only son, and he’s mother is a beautiful mortal. When he was still little, his mother took care of him, and they live on the mortal world. Daemon’s mother is a very beautiful movie star, and she fell in love with Lucian. She left everything she has when she gave birth to daemon to tend on his every need, and to watch him grow and be the person she wishes him to be. But when his mother found out that Lucian’s not a human, she take daemon with her to hide him from his father’s selfish plans, but she’s just a mortal, Lucian killed him, and erased daemon’s memories of her mother.

With Daemon wants to impress his father, and to finally give him attention and recognize him as his son, he’ll do everything his father commands him. Even when it means finding equilibria, the girl she never thought she’ll fall for (that’s me haha), and the girl who will fix each and every piece of the lost memories of his mother.

Equilibria anchors everything good and bad, and the world’s impending doom will only be preempted, if good and bad will work together as one. Can they face this calamitous battle? Can they see through the meaning of the prophecy? Can their love save equilibria?
Haha, now that’s an article. :) 

For My Dearest Matt


You’re a stranger yet my feelings for you are all familiar.
Like we’ve already spend a warm summer together.
Like I memorized the sound of your laughs and sobs.
Like you have me once, and I have you.

Your stares felt like they bored through me a million times
Your lips felt like it had touched mine for countless mornings
Your hair, it seemed like I have brushed them with my fingers before
You’re a stranger yet you’ve had my heart completely awed.

The color of your eyes, it’s the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen
And somewhat, I feel like they are for me to stare at forever.
I can feel your heartbeat yes I can,
And somehow, I know it’s completely congruent with mine.

I don’t know if it’s only the caffeine
Or I’m barely losing my mind, and god, my heart
But you’re a stranger yet my feelings for you are all familiar
Like you have my heart once, and I have yours.


Thursday, January 3, 2013

Band Cover


Uh, I have a band for almost 4 years now but we're not actually active and we seldom see each other. But, we still visit studios and play together. This one's our cover of the song What's up by the late 90's band 4non blondes. Kat's on the drum, Kc's on the lead, Jadee's on the bass and me, on the rhythm and vocal. We're just amateurs so pardon for the unclean cover. :>


Libido.

Well, it's already 10:30 pm, i'm bored and i don't want to sleep yet sooo, i'm going to post pictures of random guys i slept with, blah blah blah and here they are.















They're Matt Bomer, Alex Pettyfer, Wade Poezyn, Tanner Patrick, Aaron Johnson, Alexander Rodriguez, Dennis O'neil and Andy Sixx not on the exact order. And Matt Bomer's my current man. Geez, in my dreams. *swoon

People


People are people
They curse
They lie
They demean.

People are people
They love
They sympathize
They care.

People are people
They bewilder
They seek
They ask.

People are people
They’re impermanent
They’re vulnerable
They’re fragile.

People are people
They’re imperfect
They learn
They grow.

People are people
This world’s this world
And they’re both pesky.

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

That and This.




Just some random pictures i took with my phone. I don't know, I just don't have anything in mind and since this blog's mine, I believe I am subject for a right to post whatever I want to even if it includes my hideous face. And the Mang Inasal photo, I don't usually took photos of my foods, but I did with that one, since i'm too tired that moment of devouring my third rice and if i ate it like a tornado is going to hit me from the back, i'll puke. So yeah. I'm not going to discuss the other photos anymore, they're not going to be hanged on the museums anyway.

And also, I've read Cathryn Fox's Hotline and Cheyenne McCray's Forbidden Magic. The both of them are nevertheless, EROTIC. Here's a photo of a page I captured. :P

                                                    Hotline by Cathryn Fox.

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Narcolepsy


I woke up in shallow chitters
It’s 3 am and there’s nothing but darkness
And the thin membrane of vulnerability
I tried to lulled myself to sleep, my mind failed me.

I plugged earpiece to my auricles
Hoping to overpower my throbbing heart
Rather, it filled me with abstract emotions
Ghosts of the past had come back.

I’m drenched with raw pathetic emotions
My blanket, soaked with melancholy
From childhood to now, I’m afraid of nightmares
But tonight, I’d rather be swallowed by one.

A cold wind drained my blood in a rush
My head felt the jitter from a catapult
My heart somersaulted in my chest
I leaped from the bed and from the reality.

It wasn’t just a dream,
You’re not on my side, and you’ve never been.

Coma

I woke up with the sunlight stinging my eyes. My body had recuperated enough, but my mind's restless. I dragged the blanket to cocoon myself to its calming softness. I looked at the clock, it's 10 in the morning and my feet tingle with pain.  

The weather's joyous, it's a good day for wandering,but walking is the list thing on my list. I grabbed for my phone but it's out of my reach and i'm otiose enough to extend an arm. I burrowed my face to my pillow, my hair smelled of vanilla and morning fog. If it's just any ordinary day, i'm already groomed and face-slumped into a book, but this day's no ordinary, so is last night.  

I squeezed my pillow against my thumping heart, 10 minutes more and i'm going to kiss the day good morning, but while my mind's still nuzzling with the solitariness it ironically enjoys, i'm going to drift away from the reality and french kiss the cosmic world i hold dear.

Friday, December 21, 2012

Book Review: Perfect Chemistry by Simon Elkeles



I just finished reading ‘Perfect Chemistry’ by Simon Elkeles, and it was, I can’t find words to describe it, oh my gosh it’s just so damn good. And I’m still crying up to this very moment. I didn’t expect it to turn out to be captivating, and hilarious, and heart stomping and thrilling, all at the same time. It’s like a mash-up of all my favorite flavors in one ice cream. Funny thing the male lead has the same surname as I do, Alejandro Fuentes and he is HOOOOOT that I felt somewhat awkward reading my last name on the book. *giggles

At first, I thought it was just another teenage book that circles on typical ups and downs of being a teenager and being in a relationship but I was totally wrong, it was pieces of blatant reality, weaved to a book.
The male lead Alejandro Fuentes is a gang member who has this badass reputation that his schoolmates won’t even dare to look him in the eye, or else they’ll get in to a not so pretty situation. It was the memory of his father’s death that made him resentful of everything about life. He is surely not the kind of guy your mother would allow you to date or even be friends with, but surely the kind of guy that made girls swoon despite his belligerent façade. 

It was his senior year and he just planned on playing it cool until graduation and then whatever will be will be, until one day in a Chemistry subject, he was partnered with the school princess, Brittany Ellis and everything just changed beyond his heart’s control. Brittany Ellis is the perfect blonde princess of the school, she is the envy of any girl. On the outside, she’s just as perfect as a fragile snowflake, a pretty face, a body to die for, a smartass, a quarter back boy friend and a very well off family but on the inside, she’s a warrior fighting for her personal battles.

As the two of them get to hate, get to know and get to adore each other’s concealed flaws, they will just found themselves madly in love with each other. And I found myself in love with the both of them as well. It was a very great story, probably one of the few books that have etched into my heart. One negative thing about the book, it had raised my expectation about love and now I don’t know if I’ll ever have the chance to get married. Great book, poor me.



Btw this is Alex Fuentes, as portrayed by Alexander Rodriguez. He is HOTNESS Mygas. *ovary explode

Obscurity


Too young to get serious
Too old to play
I’m probing for a middle ground
Yet I grasped none.

I fidgeted my brain with countless tap
Wishing for it to puke rainbows and unicorns
I sauntered on levitation
And everything fell in a slow-mo of cliché

I myself is baffled with my thoughts
I settled for vagueness
Until I lost track of my own motifs
Oblivion and its pungent taste, melted in my tongue
Sure I’m going to puke neither unicorns nor rainbows
But more likely a buttery goo of pride and ignominy

I stare back to my paper
It sees the pit I try to conceal
Between my finger and pen are the things I enshroud
And they stay where I left them.